Thursday, January 19, 2012

Jane Austen What is right?


What is right to be done cannot be done too soon.
I wonder what Jane meant when she wrote this?
Well I will take it to mean that at some point we just know what has to be done.At some point in our story, we have to make a decision about what we know in our heart, to be the best decision for our well being. We have to let go of the control, lose the toxic security and face the storm.
I am in that storm and the next two weeks will be unsettling and very difficult. It is one of the unwritten laws of nature.... make a change and the wild winds will blow and shake you to your core, demanding that you shed your old self and create a new you. Look at the life cycle of the butterfly. It must break through and fight its way towards freedom and fly beautifully towards a new life.
May I find the strength of that butterfly!

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Rudyard Kipling

Rudyard Kipling 1865 -1936
Yesterday I heard some very disturbing information at work. Disbelief would be the only way to describe it. It is at times like this that I am grateful that I learned how to knit as a child. The repetitive movement of the knitting needles seem to soothe the hurt and allow me to think things over in a calmer state of mind.
Life is not easy and no matter how old we get, we continue to be amazed at the ignorance of human nature and their need for power and control. It takes a weak man to use his ego to bring down others, especially a female who goes against the control.
Ahhh such is life and there has to be reasons for it. The lesson here is to remain calm, remain solid when attacked with untruths and live through it with kindness and the knowledge that they are to be more pitied than to waste your anger on them. This too shall come to pass as my Mom used to say.
Please read this poem which is hanging on the wall here in my office written by Rudyard Kipling. On days like today, I read it to remind myself how I have lived though so many events in my life and today the words are very fitting.......

IF.....
IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream and not make dreams your master;
If you can think and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,'
Or walk with Kings nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it
And which is more you'll be a Man, my son!

Friday, January 13, 2012

We cannot change people ......


Today I am working on a heavy report that will definitely change my direction at work, in fact it may be the final chapter after 12 years of trying to make something work. I have tried so hard to find solutions and I have sacrificed my health, relationships and even worked on a volunteer bases for years because there was no funding to pay me. I think that I have reached the point where I have no choice but to search outside of my work place and I have faith that something positive will come from it though so I do not see it as a negative. By chance I just found this site in an email message, funny how it just happened to appear and is telling me exactly what I need to know... life is full of wonder and if we seek we shall find... So I will pass on the message and this quote that I found in the email......
"We cannot alter external things, nor shape other people to our liking, nor mold the world to our wishes but we can alter internal things, our desires, passions, thoughts, we can shape our liking to other people and we can mold the inner world of our own mind in accordance with wisdom, and so reconcile it to the outer world of men and things"
James Allen
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Thursday, January 12, 2012

Go in the Direction that makes your Heart Sing

Maybe I really do have to walk away to start again..... ?
Before getting ready to work on the strategic plan for work this morning, I decided to check my email and found this quote " Go in the direction of whatever makes your heart sing and let God work out the details"
No matter how hard I try to hold on to what I am expected to do and how much I worry about being able to pay the bills if I do decide to make a career change, I have to believe that things will work out. Fear has me constantly searching for signs to lead me in the right direction and see things clearer. This little message was certainly a powerful one. To read more about it follow this link to Cynthia's blog.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Working the Imagination

This is how we should all spend our days, laying on a soft bed, taking in the sun. Ditz doesn't have a care in the world it seems... life is good!
Another day about to end and I think I will go to bed with a good book and read myself to sleep. I spent the day working on a strategic plan for work and I think I really made some positive decisions on how to solve some of the problems at work.
Yet deep inside, I know that it will be a real uphill battle to implement the changes, for humans hate changes for the most part. Last year when I tried to make a few changes I took a lot of flack for it and this year will be even worst for the changes are even bigger. I am already feeling the pressure.
The question here is what changes am I going to make for myself ? It all comes down to my financial security because if I won the lottery, I definitely know what I would do. I just heard that a friend who had battled cancer last year and thought she beat it, got bad news, the cancer is back. We all thought she had beaten it and that she was safe, but now that it is back so soon, it does not look good. She may not have a chance to make changes. I do but will I?
Words of wisdom for today:
My Mom used to say " Don't put off tomorrow what you can do today"

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

When to call it Quits

Yes Ditz loves the computer and I do believe wants to write her book as well!

Quote for the day....
The first rule of holes: If you are in one, stop digging.
I just found this quote in an email and I believe it is another little sign for me to say, " Enough" I certainly feel that I am in a hole and have been for years, I keep digging but I am just dragging myself further and further down. When I take the time to look up, I realise that I am just getting more and more tired and I am not getting anywhere. If I do not make changes, I am wasting my time.
I think that there are many others like me out there digging themselves further into whatever situation they find themselves in. Why do we allow ourselves to do this? Is it because old habits die hard? Are we afraid of change? Are we stuck in the past? Are we financially dependant on the position we are in right now, like a job that is sucking the life out of us? Do we feel others will look badly on our decision?
Well here's to hoping that we can all make the changes that we have to in 2012. Lets stop all that digging and get out of that hole that we have chosen. There is another way to live a better life!

Monday, January 9, 2012

A Radio Interview


Never let yesterday's disapointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams........
You never know what awaits you when a day begins. Today I woke up planning to do a lot at work. I had an early meeting about a new direction for the Museum and so my head was focused on convincing the government and myself that we should go ahead with the big project that I conjured up last fall. The discussion went well and ended on a positive note with me having to do a lot more paperwork of course. One distractuon lead to another and my day slipped away as they usually do without getting many things crossed off my to do list.
Then late this afternoon I had a call from the CBC for an interview about my neighbour husband who was murdered on December 26th in Grenada. I have been following this story since it first happened and have loss sleep over it wondering about my neighbour and how she is doing. Today was her husbands funeral and an international media is covering the story. How they found me for an interview is strange and to listen to myself on the interview is even stranger for I have been the one searching s for links online ever since it happened. All this to say we can never know what a day will bring. Also we should count ourselves lucky to have ordinary problems and not be in a situation like this woman.
I have added the link below if you want to listen to it. It all seems too crazy to be true.